Usually if I think hard enough I can come up with some sort of inspiration and a topic, but at this particular moment I've got nothing.
I've been reading a new blog lately about a lady who on paper seems so different from me, but as I've read more there seems to be more things in common then you'd expect. Anyway....I think that's interesting.
I don't feel like talking about the infertility issues. Sometimes it consumes me and I am trying desperately to avoid that from happening completely. It's funny....if I lived in the civilian world I probably wouldn't feel nearly as much pressure to get pregnant. In desperation when Avery was out to sea last, I told my Mom I just wanted to be back to a normal life. But then I realized that the military life is our normal and if Avery got out, we would be lost. The military life isn't for everyone, but it's for us. And if it takes us 5 years to get pregnant, then that's how it will be and that will be our "normal." Okay...that's enough of that. On to a new topic: THE OLYMPICS!
I LOVE THE OLYMPICS. Just absolutely love them and now that we have digital cable and DVR, I have been able to see so much more of them. To the point where I am getting little sleep, because I am staying up so late to watch them. I was so pleased that a US man won the gold medal for men's figure skating. In case you weren't aware, that hasn't happened since 1988. What a great achievement for men's figure skating and the USA. Go team!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Because notes with questions are fun....
1. Who was your first prom date?
My freshmen year of high school, a senior asked me to go with him to his Prom, so technically my first prom date was a guy named Dan and no I haven't a clue where he is anymore.
2. Do you still talk to your first love?
Actually I do occasionally, because though I didn't end up marrying him he was/is a decent guy and a fairly good friend.
3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
Communion wine (I am such a good Catholic!)
4. What was your first job?
Since babysitting probably doesn't count: how about the summer before my freshmen year of college when I was a Nanny & Housekeeper to some bratty kids. Sorry to be mean, but they were brats and if my future kids behave the way they did to a nanny...serious consequences will follow.
5. What was your first car?
'95 Oldsmobile Achieva
6. Who was the first person to text you today?
I actually haven't gotten any text messages today, but the day is still young.
7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning?
My dietitian, because I'd just had a dream with him in it.
8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Schull
9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane?
Denver, when I was all of 3 months old.
10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
Cassandra and no we do not talk any longer, because she made a few decisions in life that I just can't agree with, despite my best attempt to not judge.
11. Where was your first sleepover?
A girl, in the neighborhood that I first lived in, named Emily's house. She started snoring that night and I didn't like it, so I tried to go home. :-)
12. Who was the first person you talked to today?
Avery and NPR, because I always talk to the news radio.
13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time?
My childhood church nanny, Nancy's wedding in 1996. I was very upset to not be the flower girl, so despite my participation in the wedding, I still pouted.
14. What was the first thing you did this morning?
Drove Avery to work.
15. What was the first concert you went to?
Don't laugh: a Christian rock band, whose name I can't for the life of me recall anymore and it's the only concert I've ever been to.
16. First tattoo?
I want an anchor or a star, but my spouse says those are way too common for Navy wives to get, so he thinks I should come up with something else.
17. First piercing?
My ears. I got them as birthday present for my 6th birthday.
18. First foreign country you went to?
England in the Spring of 2002
19. First movie you remember seeing?
Sleeping Beauty, but it was a movie my parents bought and not something I saw at the theatre.
20. What state (province) did you first live in?
Illinois
21. Who was your first roommate?
Allison (last name not recalled) from Wisconsin. I lived with her for one semester. She was very nice, but much too quiet for my tastes.
22. When was your first detention?
5th grade for forgetting to bring my reading homework to school with me. That was the only time I got detention and my teacher said he did it, because he needed to prepare me for the difficulties of middle school. Well I'll have you know that I never got a detention for forgetting homework in middle school, so he was wrong!
23. When was your first kiss?
8th grade and I didn't like it.
24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance?
This is a very good question and I am not sure of the answer.
My freshmen year of high school, a senior asked me to go with him to his Prom, so technically my first prom date was a guy named Dan and no I haven't a clue where he is anymore.
2. Do you still talk to your first love?
Actually I do occasionally, because though I didn't end up marrying him he was/is a decent guy and a fairly good friend.
3. What was your first alcoholic drink?
Communion wine (I am such a good Catholic!)
4. What was your first job?
Since babysitting probably doesn't count: how about the summer before my freshmen year of college when I was a Nanny & Housekeeper to some bratty kids. Sorry to be mean, but they were brats and if my future kids behave the way they did to a nanny...serious consequences will follow.
5. What was your first car?
'95 Oldsmobile Achieva
6. Who was the first person to text you today?
I actually haven't gotten any text messages today, but the day is still young.
7. Who was the first person you thought of this morning?
My dietitian, because I'd just had a dream with him in it.
8. Who was your first grade teacher?
Mrs. Schull
9. Where did you go on your first flight in a plane?
Denver, when I was all of 3 months old.
10. Who was your first best friend and do you still talk?
Cassandra and no we do not talk any longer, because she made a few decisions in life that I just can't agree with, despite my best attempt to not judge.
11. Where was your first sleepover?
A girl, in the neighborhood that I first lived in, named Emily's house. She started snoring that night and I didn't like it, so I tried to go home. :-)
12. Who was the first person you talked to today?
Avery and NPR, because I always talk to the news radio.
13. Whose wedding were you in for the first time?
My childhood church nanny, Nancy's wedding in 1996. I was very upset to not be the flower girl, so despite my participation in the wedding, I still pouted.
14. What was the first thing you did this morning?
Drove Avery to work.
15. What was the first concert you went to?
Don't laugh: a Christian rock band, whose name I can't for the life of me recall anymore and it's the only concert I've ever been to.
16. First tattoo?
I want an anchor or a star, but my spouse says those are way too common for Navy wives to get, so he thinks I should come up with something else.
17. First piercing?
My ears. I got them as birthday present for my 6th birthday.
18. First foreign country you went to?
England in the Spring of 2002
19. First movie you remember seeing?
Sleeping Beauty, but it was a movie my parents bought and not something I saw at the theatre.
20. What state (province) did you first live in?
Illinois
21. Who was your first roommate?
Allison (last name not recalled) from Wisconsin. I lived with her for one semester. She was very nice, but much too quiet for my tastes.
22. When was your first detention?
5th grade for forgetting to bring my reading homework to school with me. That was the only time I got detention and my teacher said he did it, because he needed to prepare me for the difficulties of middle school. Well I'll have you know that I never got a detention for forgetting homework in middle school, so he was wrong!
23. When was your first kiss?
8th grade and I didn't like it.
24. What is one thing you would learn, given the chance?
This is a very good question and I am not sure of the answer.
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
February
It's a new month already! Where did the time go? This year is already beginning to fly past me. In some respects I desperately want this year to hurry up and be done, but at the same time I want it to go slow.
No baby this month and my reaction to the news is the worst it's ever been. I can't thank my friends and husband enough for helping me cope with this disappointment. I think it's time to move on to plan B....whatever that may be. (When I figure out what it is, I'll let you know.)
Tomorrow I am going to make my Valentine's Day cards. I used to hate V-day for years, basically because I was single so often for it that I got bitter. Even when Avery and I were first together, I didn't like it, because our first Valentine's Day wasn't spent together (he was out to sea and I was in Illinois) and there were all sorts of mishaps related to him sending me flowers. Thus our first Valentine's Day as a married couple was met with skepticism. It wasn't perfect by any means, but Avery really worked hard for me to like it (despite forgetting to get me flowers...now that's a story!) This year I am looking at it with a new pair of eyes and seeing it not as the silly Hallmark holiday, but as also a day to show appreciation for the ones you love. So to all of you that I love: Happy early Valentine's Day (look for your card in the mail soon.) :-)
No baby this month and my reaction to the news is the worst it's ever been. I can't thank my friends and husband enough for helping me cope with this disappointment. I think it's time to move on to plan B....whatever that may be. (When I figure out what it is, I'll let you know.)
Tomorrow I am going to make my Valentine's Day cards. I used to hate V-day for years, basically because I was single so often for it that I got bitter. Even when Avery and I were first together, I didn't like it, because our first Valentine's Day wasn't spent together (he was out to sea and I was in Illinois) and there were all sorts of mishaps related to him sending me flowers. Thus our first Valentine's Day as a married couple was met with skepticism. It wasn't perfect by any means, but Avery really worked hard for me to like it (despite forgetting to get me flowers...now that's a story!) This year I am looking at it with a new pair of eyes and seeing it not as the silly Hallmark holiday, but as also a day to show appreciation for the ones you love. So to all of you that I love: Happy early Valentine's Day (look for your card in the mail soon.) :-)
Friday, January 29, 2010
Back to the ordinary after visitors
The title says it all. We had a visitor with us last week. It was one of my former college roommates. She'd never been here so despite a sinus infection & a busy life I managed to play tour guide for her. We've never had anyone say at our house before that wasn't related to us, so I definitely learned a few things about having guests. Not that she was a bad guest, but when your name is Liz and you are a busy Navy wife you realize how hard it is to slow your life down to be a proper tour guide. Thus I think all future guests will need to invest in renting a car when staying with us. Now if they chose to stay in Waikiki a rental car may not be necessary. Anyway....lessons learned and a fun time was had. I definitely was forced to brush up on my Hawaiian history and actually am reading a book about Hawaiian history, since my interest in the history of where I live has been renewed. Anyway, she left on Monday and that meant it was time for me to accomplish all that didn't get accomplished last week. Here it is Friday and I finally feel like I am nearly all caught up. This weekend I am looking forward to doing a bit of homework, some laundry, going on a job interview and then just taking it easy.
Fertility update:
Have to wait until next week to have more tests done. However if I get a positive pregnancy test that will negate all such tests, so I am very much hoping for a positive test. Continued prayers on that front are appreciated.
School:
I changed my major from Healthcare Administration to Health & Human Services. I changed, because I really didn't like the management aspect and I know I do better when I am working directly with people. So I've switched and yes while it will push college graduation back yet again....I think this is for the best. When I get back to nursing in 2 years, this degree could help me work as a nurse in a public health setting and that is something I think I might really enjoy. Management just isn't for me.
Not much else to tell everyone. So I'll stop for now.
Fertility update:
Have to wait until next week to have more tests done. However if I get a positive pregnancy test that will negate all such tests, so I am very much hoping for a positive test. Continued prayers on that front are appreciated.
School:
I changed my major from Healthcare Administration to Health & Human Services. I changed, because I really didn't like the management aspect and I know I do better when I am working directly with people. So I've switched and yes while it will push college graduation back yet again....I think this is for the best. When I get back to nursing in 2 years, this degree could help me work as a nurse in a public health setting and that is something I think I might really enjoy. Management just isn't for me.
Not much else to tell everyone. So I'll stop for now.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Absentee Voting & Fertility
The State of Illinois sent me my absentee ballot for the February 2nd general primary election today. The only I have to say: who the heck are half these people?? As of now I haven't a clue who to vote for, because despite my best efforts, let's face it...I am not up on my local Illinois politics. I called my Mom, who still lives there and even she didn't know some of the names. I intend to do a little internet research and hopefully find some non-biased information. I dislike voting when I am uninformed, though I have done that before.
As for life, it turns out the doctors were wrong and I do not have a re-occurrence of cervical cancer. So I am moving forward; my ob/gyn and I will be discussing my fertility this week. Without going into too many details, my sailor husband and I have been trying for 9 months now to conceive a child without any luck. Apparently in the military system after 6 months they'll consider you infertile and finally help you out. I wonder how this conversation is going to play out, because although I like my ob/gyn, let's face it the doctor has a few issues he needs to work out. The major one being that he really ought to look at a patient's chart before speaking with them. I would like to change doctors, but at the moment he's my only option, so I will do what I have to do.
As for my resolves: I am failing miserably at the homework one. I work better under pressure, so maybe that one doesn't make sense for me.
As for life, it turns out the doctors were wrong and I do not have a re-occurrence of cervical cancer. So I am moving forward; my ob/gyn and I will be discussing my fertility this week. Without going into too many details, my sailor husband and I have been trying for 9 months now to conceive a child without any luck. Apparently in the military system after 6 months they'll consider you infertile and finally help you out. I wonder how this conversation is going to play out, because although I like my ob/gyn, let's face it the doctor has a few issues he needs to work out. The major one being that he really ought to look at a patient's chart before speaking with them. I would like to change doctors, but at the moment he's my only option, so I will do what I have to do.
As for my resolves: I am failing miserably at the homework one. I work better under pressure, so maybe that one doesn't make sense for me.
Friday, January 8, 2010
New Year, New Month, Revised Me
Well here we are in 2010. We started the year off quietly and in reflection. My husband and I decided not to have resolutions, but instead to have resolves. For 2010, he is resolving to exercise more and lose some weight. I am resolving to attend church at least twice a month, do my homework earlier in the week, and the biggest one: I am resolving to be happy. That sounds cliche' I know, but I was reading something another friend had written that said we control whether we are happy or not and that struck a cord for me. I think I believe that to be pretty much true. Upon reflection (and I had plenty of time in airports and on airplanes to do so) I realized that often I have chosen to just stay miserable. It is like it gave me something to do and well I'd rather spend my time being happy instead.
So here I am eight days into the new year and I want to say I've done well and I suppose I have, I did do homework a little earlier (but only in terms of hours...so that resolve will take more work) and I plan to attend church this Sunday. My resolve to be happy though has succeeded fairly well. I did let the hormones take control for a day there when I was just mad, but yesterday I got back on the happiness horse. Today I can say I am happy too, because despite the not so perfect life I made the choice to be happy today.
So here I am eight days into the new year and I want to say I've done well and I suppose I have, I did do homework a little earlier (but only in terms of hours...so that resolve will take more work) and I plan to attend church this Sunday. My resolve to be happy though has succeeded fairly well. I did let the hormones take control for a day there when I was just mad, but yesterday I got back on the happiness horse. Today I can say I am happy too, because despite the not so perfect life I made the choice to be happy today.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Determined
My title says it all. I am determined to blog more regularly about the happenings in my life. I even have a post-it note up in my office now that says "BLOG" to remind me.
Life updates: Avery and I got the the sad news this week that my cervical cancer has returned. It was not expected at all. We both figured I'd go in for the check-up, get the "everything is normal" speech and hopefully get a little help on the trying to have a kid front. That was not to be though, so alas we go through this holiday season hoping that God has a reason for this new development and that we might someday understand it.
As I write this Avery is at work, but thankfully no longer out to sea. I have never been so happy to have him come back in port, as I was this week. He is such a comfort and is definitely the calmer of the two of us.
We are going to St. Louis for the holidays to see my family. My Oma (Mom's Mother) is not doing well and we were told we really ought to come home and see her. So we cashed in a gazillion airline miles and are traveling out there. I am already dreading the long flights. I love flying, but the long flights from our island home to the mainland are just exhausting!
I took our kitties, Grace & Blackie, to the vet and they both got a clean bill of health. This is particularly good news since they were a few months over due on their shots. Opps! No worries though, they are fine now and all updated.
I best get off of this computer and begin my lazy Saturday.
Life updates: Avery and I got the the sad news this week that my cervical cancer has returned. It was not expected at all. We both figured I'd go in for the check-up, get the "everything is normal" speech and hopefully get a little help on the trying to have a kid front. That was not to be though, so alas we go through this holiday season hoping that God has a reason for this new development and that we might someday understand it.
As I write this Avery is at work, but thankfully no longer out to sea. I have never been so happy to have him come back in port, as I was this week. He is such a comfort and is definitely the calmer of the two of us.
We are going to St. Louis for the holidays to see my family. My Oma (Mom's Mother) is not doing well and we were told we really ought to come home and see her. So we cashed in a gazillion airline miles and are traveling out there. I am already dreading the long flights. I love flying, but the long flights from our island home to the mainland are just exhausting!
I took our kitties, Grace & Blackie, to the vet and they both got a clean bill of health. This is particularly good news since they were a few months over due on their shots. Opps! No worries though, they are fine now and all updated.
I best get off of this computer and begin my lazy Saturday.
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