Anxious

Tuesday is the big first appointment with the specialist. We tried a Clomid cycle this time and the way the timing works, means that we could get some good news about doing IUI this cycle at that appointment. I am so anxious, excited and nervous all at the same time. Avery and I both said we'd laugh/cry if the Clomid was all we needed. I feel so upbeat about this, but of course pessimism is creeping in a little as we get close to this appointment. All my fears about miscarriage or not being able to get pregnant before his deployment nip at the edges of my happy, hopeful heart.
It's even harder, because more people have announced pregnancies lately and my desire to be one of them is strong again. Though oddly I had a random desire to be living alone without kids just today. That dissipated slowly...which surprised me.

Hope everyone had a great holiday. I sure did. I got almost all of my shopping done on Black Friday. A feat I have never before accomplished. It was fun! :-)

Things I am Thankful for this Thanksgiving

All over facebook people are posting what they are thankful for everyday of November. Obviously I don't have time (okay, really desire) to do so, so I figured I'd compile a big list here.

1. Good friends who invite us over to their homes, since our families aren't here to celebrate with us.
2. An amazing submarine command that hosts a Thanksgiving dinner on the pier, so those who are on duty (like my husband) and their spouses can share a meal together.
3. A perfectly timed Clomid cycle that will hopefully lead to IUI very soon.
4. Moms who love us so much.
5. POG, because it just tastes delicious.
6. Pets that love us unconditionally.
7. Warm, comfortable weather in Hawaii.
8. Good friends who meet for lunch just to catch up.
9. People who split the cost of a taxi with you.
10. Having enough food to eat and never going hungry.
11. Trustworthy people who house sit for you and refuse payment.
12. Getting a Christmas present that someone really desires.
13. Hope on the horizon.
14. Being happy.
15. Prayers.
16. Coupons that save me lots of money.
17. A husband who loves me no matter what.
18. Nice pictures.
19. Faith.
20. God who loves us.
21. Family coming for Christmas
22. A quiet house.
23. Good professors and advisers.
24. Healthcare professionals that do all they can for us.
25. Health insurance.
26. Music
27. Dancing
28. Doing things I love.
29. Books!
30. Having so many things to be thankful for.

Happy Veteran's Day!

Today is Veteran's Day. Since my husband is underway, defending our nation...I think of the day with more distinction.
Avery is really modest about the work he does and the sacrifices he makes. I always thank him for his service and he down plays it. He doesn't think that he does that much. But he does...he leaves for weeks & months at a time getting to hear little from home. All to defend the freedom of many.

Thank you to Avery, my husband & hero and so many others who have defended our freedom or currently do so. Without you, there would be no land of the free.

Happy Veteran's Day!

Halloween in review

Yes, we dress up our pets and embarrass them to death. Yes, they hate us for it. But oh well, they are just so ridiculously cute dressed up.


Here's Blackie with a witch hat on.









Grace with a witch hat on.















Stanley, our little scarecrow. He was super angry with me, especially since I forced him to keep it on all night. Even after he managed to lose the hat, I made him keep the rest on. He was pissed and kept running to Avery for help.








In other Halloween news, we ran out of candy. I will have to buy more next year.

A Range of Emotions

First topic: Well...I had the appointment and we got our referral. I am so excited and scared all at the same time. Technically we have to wait for the army hospital to turn us down, but I am not bothering to wait. I have the name of a civilian doctor and I am going ahead with him.

I am was so excited that I went to see if by some chance Avery's boat was still there and instead watched them pull away from the pier. I admit, I cried....something I've never done before. I usually get energized and start my "he's underway" to-do list without much thought. Well not this time...tears were flowing and I instantly wished the boat could stay home.

That said, I am a military wife and I can do this. I will get the appointment, discuss what to do and then tell Avery when to show up.

Oh a side note: I resigned from my job. I decided there was no point in being somewhere, where I was so miserably unhappy every time I worked. Not sure where I'll work next, but I will figure out something.