I don't even know where to start this post. I've been so negative lately. And it boils down to the fact that I just desperately miss Hawaii and the people there. (Which Avery would roll his eyes at since I was the one who told him not to fight the detailer when his chief said he could and instead come here.) Avery told me a few days ago that I really needed to change my outlook. Of course at the time I took that personally and got angry with him. However, he was right. I've been so depressed about all sorts of things that I've been bitter. My outlook has been negative and harsh. I have always been a plan- way- too- far- aheader and that is hurting me. My son is 5 months old and I am already wondering how we're going to have the second child, which just depresses me more. So to the person I dumped all that on the other day, I am sorry. I just didn't know where else to turn.
I am hoping my trip home in August helps me renew my spirit. I always seem to feel renewed after I go home.
Today I am taking Matthew to the kidney doctor in Tacoma. Thankfully a gal I've known online since before I married Avery lives up there and I am finally going to meet her in person. I just need a best friend here. Maybe it's her? (R, if you're reading this, sorry for the pressure. ;-)
Thanks for listening....update on Matthew's appointment to follow this weekend or Monday.
I miss Hawaii too!!!
ReplyDeleteI know I am not a parent yet, but I am a great listener and you can hit me up anytime. I know how living here can get :)
We miss you, too, Liz. It's like a part of the sun went missing when you left. You were the only one to reach out to me when I moved here, and before that, I was very lonely and down as well. Friends are important, but also know that you are never alone when God is in your life. Don't forget, He is here to carry your burdens when they get too heavy for you. It helps me to count my blessings, to focus on the good things in my life, to remember it could be worse. Enjoy your time with Matthew, and when it comes time for a second baby, you will know it. Avery could have chosen a different way/time to talk about how negative you feel right now. He should remember that you just had a baby, and you will be going through a lot of ups and downs as your hormones balance out. So tell him I said to pick and choose his battles, and he needs to be your shoulder and let you get it out right now. A time will come for talking about it, but it's not now. One last thing ... my phone number better still be in your phone, and it's yours to use into infinity. <3
ReplyDeleteIf you ever want to talk feel free to add me on FB: http://tinyurl.com/7pbykv2 Since I'm in the next town over and everything. :)
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