Hope

Still no answers on the job situation, the higher ups came to town but never stopped at our store. I am even more bummed out about work, since my manager has decided to leave the company. I adore her and know we'll continue as friends, but still I will miss working for her. I am still so annoyed/upset that I am now seriously considering finding another job. The thought of starting over though is so daunting though.

We got some answers on the Avery health front. Now it's time to go back to my doctor and find out what to do next on the having a child front. I feel hopeful again and can see us accomplishing the pregnancy thing long before he deploys next year. Yay for victories!

I got a pedicure last night and they were really busy, so I had to sit & wait awhile. Just sitting there soaking my feet for extra time was so relaxing. I wish I could have the wait more often. :-)

Alright...time to go....peace out friends.

Work, work, work

I have been very emotional lately. The feeling of peace I had the last time I posted is waning.

Work is pretty stressful....I took on more hours in an effort to show commitment to the company and honestly in a hope that it would help me get promoted. So far that appears to have helped, since they asked me about management. Yet the other night as we were getting hit with nasty emails from a higher up, I started questioning my desire to continue with a company that can be so very, very negative. I know I am good at my job, but I can't force people to come in if they don't want to. The high ups will be in town this afternoon. My answer to what I should do could be coming soon.

I need to get back into college, but honestly I'm afraid to pick up the phone and say to my adviser "sorry I was out with no explanation for over a month, can I come back now?" Things like that make me uncomfortable and wish I was still at the age where your parents could do the work for you.
EDIT: Apparently writing that paragraph gave me the courage to call them. *Phew* Glad I got over that one.

I know it's early, but I am looking forward to Christmas. My Mom is flying in for 2 weeks and I think we'll have a ball.

Bible Study

Recently, I joined with up with a group of women to get together and study the bible together every week. We pick certain chapters and verses to read and study, then get together and discuss what we thought. This is a way to show how the bible fits with our lives. After about an hour of discussion we end with making a list of prayer requests.

Most of the prayer requests change weekly, but one of mine always is the same. I noticed today that though my prayer request hasn't been fulfilled yet, just having the group praying with me has really given me peace. Avery is due home very, very soon and I really want to share this peace with him. I don't know if it will help him feel any better, but I hope that we can be at peace together.

I have never been in a bible study that wasn't required Sunday school or for religion class in high school. I am so thankful for the group and the fact that it's reminding me of the power of prayer and getting me to pray more.

God is a powerful ally and I feel fortunate that he is always on my side, even when I haven't always been able to acknowledge it.