Thursday, December 22, 2011
Right after Thanksgiving, Avery was honorably discharged and then re-enlisted in the US Navy for another 3 years. (It seems so silly that they have to discharge them to re-enlist them, but that's how it works. I sort of laughed when they said congrats you left the Navy and still got paid.) Avery is very nonchalant about the whole thing, but I am filled with pride. In the grand scheme of things, people who serve in the military are a very small part of the population. I really appreciate the fact that my husband is one of those who volunteers to do the work needed to defend not only our nation's freedoms, but also the the freedoms of other nations.
We got our official on paper orders for shore duty. Soo...where are we going?? Despite asking to stay in Hawaii, the detailer gave us our 5th choice and that is Bangor Naval Base! We should be there shortly before Easter. I am slowly getting used to the idea of leaving Hawaii and finding things about Bangor to love.
In case I didn't make it official on here, we did name our son finally. His name is Matthew Orson. He was breech for quite a long time and due to his head smashing my stomach I gained no weight for over a month. This led to concern and had me at Kapiolani (the hospital where I will deliver) for another growth u/s just to check on him. Thankfully there was no need for concern, he was/is fine and at 34 weeks they estimated his weight at over 5 pounds. The perinatologist estimated he will be between 7 and 8 pounds at birth (praying this is true, I have a slight fear of having the biggest baby in the hospital...crazy fear I know.)
Tomorrow is my 37 week appointment. We are almost at the end and ready to meet our little boy. My body is very sore and in much pain, but Avery has been amazing at taking care of me. He's such a good husband. He always tells me that I am the best, but I am the "best" simply because he's my husband.
Hope everyone else is doing well.
Saturday, December 10, 2011
1. Wrapping paper or gift bags?
2. Real tree or Artificial?
3. When do you put up the tree?
4. When do you take the tree down?
5. Do you like eggnog?
6. Favorite gift received as a child?
Probably my American Girl dolls.
7. Do you have a nativity scene?
8. Hardest person to buy for?
9. Easiest person to buy for?
11. Worst Christmas gift you ever received?
12. Favorite Christmas Movie?
13. When do you start shopping for Christmas?
16. Clear lights or colored on the tree?
17. Favorite Christmas song?
18. Travel at Christmas or stay home?
19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer?
20. Angel on the tree top or a star?
21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning?
22. Most annoying thing about this time of year?
23. Favorite ornament, theme, or color?
Thursday, November 24, 2011
1. My husband, Avery. He never fails to take care of me in whatever way I need. I am so grateful for such a good man. (Plus, he joined Facebook which is something I never thought I'd see him do.)
2. My family....I am very lucky to have such good people related to me through blood & marriage.
3. My friends. All of them are amazing, from the ones who live far away to the ones here in Hawaii.
4. Pregnancy. I am incredibly fortunate to be pregnant and despite the difficulties that have presented themselves with it, I never forget the people who helped make this possible.
5. Going along with number 4: God, our entire prayer team, the support group & the infertility specialists who worked with us. (Our infertility journey was relatively short compared to many others and I credit that on these people.)
6. My ob/gyn. I switched to Tricare Standard to work with him and he really has been the best doctor for me. I have complete confidence in his care.
7. The United States Navy. While hard to deal with sometimes....the Navy provides my husband with a job & both of us with benefits. Hard to beat that.
8. Furry faces...aka the kitties and doggie. They kind of rock. :-)
9. Food to eat. It sounds cliche' I realize, but I am thankful we do not go hungry when so many in this country do.
10. Nearly being done with my degree. I can apply for graduation and if all goes well with our baby boy, I will finally have a college degree in May or June.
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! I hope you have a good one.
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Spa day (but only if my Mom could join, because alone at the spa is boring to me!)
What, if I were to have more children?
And donate money to all the charities I want to donate to, but never can afford to donate to.
Okay, since that's obvious...I'll say my 2nd option would be Kauai.
I'd get lasik. I don't think there's anything else I'd want done at this point in life.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Our lives in brief:
1. Pregnancy is going well. Our son looks great. I am into the 3rd trimester and getting excited to meet my little guy. We have our maternity tour a week from today.
2. Hormonal overload is in full swing. I've never felt so out of balance as I have lately. I am depressed one minute and happy the next. All I want to see is Avery when he's not here, but when he is here he's driving me up the wall. I am lonely and depressed.....I am told this is prenatal depression, which feels ridiculous to have since I am so lucky to be pregnant after all the hardship we went through.
3. Avery has a re-enlistment date and it is very soon (I honestly can't remember the exact date). He'll soon be committing to serve his country for another 3 years.
4. Shore Duty: Yes, we know where we are most likely going. (No, I am still not posting on the blog where we're going.) We just don't have a clear date of when we're going there. He was told that we would leave in March, but given no date.
The dog is on the bed....where he's not supposed to be. Better go deal with that.....ta ta my friends.....
Monday, October 10, 2011
1. Linking to Facebook
I took down the automatic link that I had on Facebook that always showed when I posted a new blog post, thinking it gave me some semblance of privacy....while I will be posting it again. Several of my non-blogspot using friends commented that they couldn't find my blog anymore, so I'll put it back up there sometime this week. Anyway....my blog isn't private, so I am not sure what I was thinking.
In desperation I asked my 3rd year resident doctor (not the ob/gyn) to please find something I could take for sleep while pregnant and he did find something. Though I am pleasantly surprised to not need it after all. Several pillows and regular tylenol have me sleeping well enough to be acceptable and not too grouchy.
It's coming along. The furniture finally arrived and Avery put it together.
Pregnancy, my own baby shower and all that jazz is still surreal sometimes. I feel guilty about my baby shower. It is almost uncomfortable to me. I wish infertility didn't exist, so everyone who wanted a baby could have one without such a fight.
5. Baby Name
He still doesn't have one. We want to use a biblical name, but are torn on which one we agree on.
Monday, October 3, 2011
1. Fence Sign
My husband's submarine has always been called "God's Boat." I don't have the foggiest idea where this nickname came from. Regardless, we take the name seriously, so of course our fence sign has to be one of the biggest. This took 4 hours to put up and no I admittedly was not there the whole time. Today we took the sign down and that took about 1 hour. I think I like take down better!
Blogger is letting me put pictures up again (maybe that Firefox update that I'd be ignoring was the trick?), so here's a picture of us from Friday's Homecoming. Forgive how awful we look. I was sick at this point and Avery had just come off a submarine. Enough Said.
3. Our Little Guy!
Looking straight at the camera during his 24 week check-up. I celebrated 25 weeks on Saturday and Avery will get to come with me to see him again at our 27 week appointment. Oh and we are hard at work on the name. He should have a name that we can announce in the next few days.
I found a recipe for it in All You Magazine. It's basically fudge with candy corn in it. I think I'll be making a trial batch soon. Just because candy corn & fudge=win win, right? I think so.
5. Nook Color
It was a birthday gift and is my new favorite piece of technology. Thanks, Mom!
Saturday, October 1, 2011
I just want to thank all of those people that helped me get through this deployment. I can't thank you enough for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. It means a lot to have so much support.
Onto the next chapter- our baby being born and SHORE DUTY!
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
1. What was supposed to be a simple way to keep track of your friends who live far away (or at least that was my use of it) has now become a confusing jumble of "you're lucky if you see what happened in the past 10 minutes, coupled with whatever FB has decided is a hot story."
2. Wow, pictures are now larger then life on your profile posts and newsfeed. If I want to see a person's picture bigger, I click on it. I don't want it glaring at me on my front page. (Especially if it's a person from high school posting the mouse in a trap, dead at her house [totally serious, this did happen.])
3. The thing I take the biggest issue with is the fact that I now have to have a running commentary of exactly who my friends are commenting to or whose stuff they are liking. This would be fine except, I am not friends with everyone they are commenting to.....which begs the huge question of "WHERE'S THE PRIVACY IN THAT?" I specifically set everything on my profile to friends only, because I want to have a minute bit of privacy. That is pretty much gone now.
Tuesday, September 20, 2011
Monday, September 19, 2011
1. Another Monday!
You're thrilled, amazed, inspired that I made it to do a 2nd Miscellany Monday in a row! I knew it. My faithful readers are so cool!
Yes, that's me. Completely exhausted all.the.time! I cannot wait for Avery to be home to take over some of the chores around the house. Then again he might not do them the right way....hmm...it might be time to let go of some of the control me thinks.
3. Book ClubMy super awesome book club met this past Sunday. We discussed "The House of the Spirits" by Isabel Allende. Loved the book!
Where has this website been all my life?
My poochie went to the groomer today. He is exhausted. The doggie spa takes a lot out of you apparently. I had an insanely cute picture of him, but yet again blogger refuses to upload a photo for me.
Monday, September 12, 2011
I am trying out this whole Miscellany Monday thing. We'll see how long I last. You know me and any sort of blogging challenge (it usually goes out the window quickly.)
2. Pregnancy Update
I am 22 weeks along and trucking on. He is very active in the morning and in the evening. He must like breakfast and dinner. (Hmm...sounds like his Dad.)
We're nearing the end. Yay, I survived and didn't cry in public (the airport totally doesn't count; my Mom was leaving.)
4. OrdersGuess what, we might have orders for Shore Duty. More on this as more information comes through from the Navy Man, since we may not be going where we think we're going. Just because I can't travel anywhere after November. (Unless the Navy wants to pay for me to get on a cruise ship to get to the mainland....yeah, never going to happen.)
Blogger doesn't like me tonight. None will upload. Technology and I have issues. Or maybe it is HP laptops and I that have issues?
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
It's hard for me since I don't want to hurt the feelings of those I know who are still struggling with infertility or who have stopped treatment. I've been there and I will never forget the pain. I still worry and I probably won't stop worrying until our baby is born and makes his first cry.
I feel as though I am letting our family and friends down, by not updating on the pregnancy. So this blog turns yet another corner.....the corner where Avery and I are about to become parents and the blog about our (okay, mine with his sprinkled in a little) family begins a bit. (Still expect my complaints, because let's face it....a gal's gotta vent somewhere!)
I am just over 19 weeks pregnant. Though he was still measuring big at 16 weeks, I still have the same January due date and as we all know.....babies come when they are ready to come.
I picked out my nursery theme and plan to order the bedding set soon. We are not planning to paint his room, since we don't know how long we'll live here.
Avery is up for orders right now. We do not know where we are going and when we'll be able to go there. Staying in Hawaii is looking like a good possibility at this moment. I admit, it is one that frightens me a little. I worry I won't be able to get a job here and I don't like the idea of not having our families nearer to us. Yet, it is also familiar and we like the weather....A LOT! 3 more years would keep our son out of the Hawaii public school system (which is not consistently known for being good.) We await word from the detailer (important dude who finds military people a new command/job when it's time to move.) It's been more difficult to pick orders since Avery is deployed and cannot just call the guy anytime he wants. Ahh well!
It looks like I will finish my degree next spring. That's a semester later then planned. I could cram it all in, but I think that'd be too stressful to do right now. I will have a degree next year though and then it will be time to re-start my career. I am behind on that front compared to most people my age and sometimes I feel lost because I am 25/26 and not in my career yet. I need to work to be fulfilled I think. Avery has his goals and he is happy. We got married and now are having a baby, so those "joint goals" as I would call them are accomplished. I need to figure out me now. [No offense to SAHM/W, it's just not for me.]
Ugh....it's late and I need sleep. Peace out folks!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
So that's the lesson for the day. Go get a humidifier, they rock!
In other news, my Momster will be here in a week and a day. Yay!!!
(Now I just have to finish a research paper and end this tortuous class.)
Back to the books, so I can keep my A in the class.
Saturday, August 13, 2011
School is ridiculously busy right now. I am dealing with a difficult professor, who I plan to report to the university at the end of this class. I'd do it now, but I hesitate to rock the boat when she's already a pain in my side. Seriously....if you don't hear from me, don't take it personally this is one of my last classes and I will not let this women railroad me out of a good grade, so I've been hunkered down working harder then I usually need to.
On the bright side of things, if you aren't friends with me on Facebook, we are having a baby boy! (He had a name, but then Avery decided to 2nd guess the name....so I will reveal it as soon as we can both agree on a name again.) I've started planning his room theme and can't wait for my Mom to get here so we can buy the furniture. Then when Avery gets home he can put all the furniture together! Avery will NOT get to miss those obligatory pictures of the Dad-to-be putting the crib together...muahahhaha!
Deployment is counting down now. We passed the halfway point over a month ago. We are getting there. Yay!
Friday, July 22, 2011
Three things I like:
3. Afternoon naps
Three things I dislike:
1. Not having inspiration to blog.
2. Super sensitive sense of smell
3. People complaining over & over again.....
Thursday, July 7, 2011
3 Things I Like:
1. Tacos for lunch!
2. Free samples from Proctor & Gamble.
3. Helpful people on the phone.
3 Things I Dislike:
1. Cooking for myself.
3. Feeling old.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
1. Be an advocate for your own health care. Health care is a business and you are the consumer. If you aren't happy with how things are going, either change doctors or speak up. This seems so simple, but I have met a lot of people who are/were afraid to do so.
2. Research, research, research! (But be careful on the internet, some of the info is good, others misleading.) Infertility is not an exact science, by any means. Your infertility doctor's office isn't going to tell you all the bad stories, they are going to tell you the successes....research on your own.
3. Have a large base of support. Doing this alone is hard. I had a whole team praying for me and it really was calming to know that others were behind me, even on the bad days or the days of lots of people getting pregnant easily. (In fact that team is still praying for me and for them I am grateful.)
4. Be skeptical of the miracle cures on the internet. If they worked, infertility doctors wouldn't be in business.
5. Make the best decisions for you. It's okay to say no.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Happy Father's Day to my hubby, Avery.
I hope you know how much I appreciate you and the work you do everyday to provide for me and our baby.
When you read this many months from now, when deployment is over, I want you to know how thought of you are and how present you are in our lives despite not being here on this particular day.
All my love, Your Wife, Liz
Monday, June 13, 2011
I am very burnt out with school, but somehow was convinced by my adviser to double up classes and be finished by December. I am just going to schedule homework time into my day. If it's on my calendar the likelihood of it getting done is much greater.
Avery sent me 2 dozen red roses as a belated anniversary gift. They were such an unexpected surprise. Things like that make deployment just a tad bit easier.
Not much else is going down. Toodles!
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
I miss....taking you to work in the morning and coming home to watch the news.
I miss....telling you all the mundane details.
I miss....texting you just to tell you I love you.
I miss....the smile you give me when you come home from work.
I miss....cooking dinner for us.
I miss....kissing you. Okay, I miss this A LOT!
I miss....the smell of the submarine.
I miss....uniforms hanging up in the laundry room.
I miss....empty energy drink cans in the car.
I miss....listening to you pay video games.
I miss....almost everything.
I miss.....my best friend.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Customer service appears to be gone when it comes to some of the airlines in this country. I realize that a lot of people fly and costs are high, but is that really reason to treat passengers like crap? My case in point: my flight from Chicago to St. Louis was canceled due to weather. When I informed the woman that I didn't live in Chicago and would therefore need a place to stay the night (aka a hotel room), she refused saying it wasn't her problem I had no place to go. Really?? The weather I understand wasn't her fault, but the fact that the flight was canceled, thereby leaving people stranded was an issue that the airline needed to address. After going back & forth and me getting increasingly angry (I do have a temper when dealing with rude customer service reps), she still wouldn't help me. The next day when I was trying yet again to get out of Chicago, I encountered more rude people working for United. They were the most unhelpful bunch of people I have ever had the misfortune of dealing with. I am a paying customer....one who has been loyal to this airline almost my entire life (thanks Dad). If they look me up in their computer, it shows my status with this airline. Yet they still think it's okay to act like I am the problem?? Am I missing something here?
What happened to customer service???? Is it just United?
I wonder, because Delta & Alaska Airlines who I also flew on this trip were fabulous to deal with. Every employee treated me well and helped me without attitude.
United lost a customer with that experience and they can blame their employees lack of service for it. Customer service is important and I really wish companies wouldn't forget this key concept.
Sunday, June 5, 2011
I had a 6 week u/s and there is just one baby. Part of me morns the loss of that embryo and yet another part sighs with relief at just having one. I have a lot of morning sickness. I cry a lot when I am alone....I just can't help it.
I miss Avery desperately. This deployment feels very long at times. They did finally port and I have spoken to him, which is nice, but it also makes it worse I fear to say. It's sometimes easier to not know where they are and to not be wondering when the next phone call will come in.
I applied for a new passport (mine was lost somewhere in the many moves I made before I got married), on the off chance that I will go meet the boat somewhere. I honestly do not think I will, because it is so very expensive, but I want to have the chance.
We are up in the air about when he will be able to re-enlist (due to the government being broke). Until that gets figured out, we have no idea where we'll be going to shore duty. If things don't work out with that, then we still have the option of him staying on the boat for another year, which would mean a 3rd deployment with this boat. I hate that option, but will go with it if we have to.
As for me, I am just doing enough work to get my degree done as quickly as possible. I don't care about my GPA anymore. It's time to just pass school and get out. I am beyond burnt out. That nursing degree that I had intended to finish after getting this degree may have to wait awhile longer or never happen. I am more & more okay with not finishing it.
Hope all are well.
Friday, May 13, 2011
1. Dots candy. Seriously deliciousness stuffed into one tiny bite.
2. My secret sister (we have secret sisters as a small way to encourage the wives during deployment)....she is pretty awesome!
3. Kindle app for my droid. Especially the free books that are available from Amazon.
4. Everyone's pictures. I always like pictures but right now I am in love with pictures. So post away friends....I want to see what you're up to!
5. My Alaska teddy bear that Avery got me on last year's Eastpac.
6. Finding the stuffed animal dog I bought in England at my Mom's house. I had thought I gave it to Goodwill when I moved out, I am so pleased to have been wrong!
One thing I don't like right now:
1. Blogger having deleted some of my favorite bloggers posts. :-(
Time to snuggle with my kindle app! Toodles friends!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Well I tried and I am sad to say that I just can't keep that promise. Plus, in all fairness I promised him only that I wouldn't reveal it on Facebook (and I have kept the FB part promise...though others have guessed). He didn't say anything about blogger. ;-)
Yes, the IVF worked. God gave us a miracle. (Or two, we don't know how many are in there yet.) I am 5 weeks and at 6 weeks I get to go have an u/s to see how many little lambs the lord blessed us with. I read somewhere that if you make it to 9 weeks you have a 90% chance of your pregnancy making it. So keep praying everyone.
Though I am over the moon....I am still thinking about others who are still waiting for their turn and their blessing of a miracle. I don't plan to make this blog all about my pregnancy now....though it will certainly be mentioned. I am still a sailor's lady who fought over 2 years to get this miracle. I will never forget how hard it was and the fears that still linger.
Thank you everyone for your support. I love you and am thrilled to be back to blogging.
Ps. If you know me on facebook, please do not announce that you know until Avery & I have done so. Just post comments to this blog. Thanks!
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
Mentally, I feel neutral. I am afraid to get too excited, just in case I have to deal with disappointment. And you all know the control-freak that I am. I am always planning ahead. (If you want to know how I manage that as a military wife, let me tell you it's a very intricate process...LOL!) I am very excited to have a positive result, but I have to prepare myself for whatever the answer may be. According to books I have read this is very normal for women who've had IVF. Oh and I can't forget to mention the anxiety. Of course I am anxious. Who wouldn't be? Thankfully the exhaustion is letting me keep that at bay a bit.
I appreciate everyone's continued prayers and thoughts. It means so much to me. I am in awe of the support we've been given. I cannot thank you all enough.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Things currently making me happy:
1. Friends, who even from afar, listen to me and tell me exactly what I need to hear.
2. Pictures of my adorable niece, whose smile makes me happy just looking at it.
3. My pets....total caring, sweet things.
4. Television...yeah, I just like it.A lot!
5. Hot showers, thank goodness for an excellent water heater.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
My egg retrieval was on Saturday and went extremely well. Our embryo transfer is Thursday. I am already like an anxious Mother, calling my IVF coordinator to check on them. I believe that life starts at conception. The day my eggs were retrieved and fertilized with my husband's sperm was the day that life began for them. Despite that it happened with the help of modern science...they are our children. Our DNA came together and created life. I am in awe of this whole process.
I just keep praying for our babies that they will be able to survive in my womb and join our daily life. God is good!
Thursday, April 21, 2011
My professional picture for my Mom & his Mom. They insisted on pictures of their daughter. ;-)
Loved my dress and the photographer was kind enough to take this one for me.
With the MCPON when I received his coin.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Now that I have a little time, I thought I'd post some pictures of our farewell. They had a BBQ on the pier for the families before the boat left. It was very nice. I can't thank our Submarine Squadron enough for such a nice time.
Our goodbye hug! I was crying into his shoulder at this point.
The Caption waves goodbye from the bridge of the submarine. He's a great guy and I know is taking good care of my guy and his shipmates.
Friday, April 8, 2011
I have given a bunch of blood, had a pap smear. Apparently I hadn't had one since December 2009...which seems strange considering all this infertility business, but my dumb ob/gyn doctor at the military clinic never did it. So my PCM kindly got me up to date on that so I can get the all clear to do the actual ivf procedure.
Avery and I are really excited and even though he isn't here for the whole thing I feel him with me. (Sappy, but true.) We made all the decisions about every possible thing that we could think of ahead of time. We are prepared or as prepared as we know to be. Our IVF coordinator has been great about emailing and calling to make sure everything is good.
Alright...off to entertain....
Saturday, March 26, 2011
We went to the commissary together today; something that I realized we hadn't done since very early in our marriage. It was sort of fun to see him realize just how much money I save us with coupons. He knew I used coupons, but I don't think he realized just how much money I can save in one trip.
Our infertility doctor gave us the plan and now we're just waiting on my body. Everything else is set to go! Yay! I can't wait for the day that I get to tell him he's a Daddy.
Well...better finish this up. Avery will be home from work soon to do more things on my...I mean his to-do list.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
I am still dealing with the shoulder & neck pain from an injury last week. I had stopped taking the pain meds, because I was getting nothing accomplished. Unfortunately I think that may have been a mistake. Hopefully that won't require a trip back to the doctor, due to possible re-injury. Yes, I'm an idiot sometimes, in case that wasn't already established.
I am so thankful to everyone who has been so wonderful to me the past month or so. I cannot thank you all enough. And my husband- he gets a gold star for how great he's been (even from the dark depths of the ocean. Haha!)
Errands to run! Toodles my friends.
Monday, March 21, 2011
I rarely talk about the heart ache of him not being here (or at least I think I rarely talk about it). It's just a part of our lives and we just do it. There's no secret to how we get through it. I send emails as I come up with enough worth telling him. He sends emails when he isn't super busy working. When he pulls into a port, he calls me...always calls me first. It has been that way since we were dating.
We have an amazing group of family & friends (both civilian & military) who support us and the work that Avery does without question. I am so thankful for all of them.
I mention this today, because I had what I call a "moment." A moment where I miss him & feel his absence so strongly that I have to cry just to release the pain. These are pretty rare, but when they happen I just have to let them out. I don't think holding in that pain is healthy.
In conclusion: we have no secret...we just do it. We/I cry when needed and then keep on going.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Christie has moved in and her dog Max is here. It's been good to have someone here. The impending IVF has me all kinds of anxious.
I spoke with the embryologist this past week and am getting together the paperwork so that everything we have banked at the other hospital can be moved to our doctor's new office & lab. Next on the IVF to-do list is calling the office to make sure the injectable medications are ordered & ready for the cycle to begin in a few weeks. I should probably call the credit card company too, just to make sure they aren't shocked by the enormous amount we're about to put on it.
I am pumped up and ready or at least faking it well. :-)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Monday, March 7, 2011
I am sick of people whining about deployment. Yeah, it sucks...get over it. Every military spouse in the world has to deal with deployment, it's just a part of our lives.
I am worried about friends. I don't like to see others in pain.
I am annoyed that the dog is misbehaving. I know he misses Avery though.
I am missing Avery too.
Oh and did I mention....I am tired.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
A – Age: 25
B – Bed size: Queen
C – Chore you hate: Cleaning floors
D – Dog’s name: Stanley
E – Essential start your day item: Boost/Ensure
F – Favorite color: Pink and blue
G – Gold or Silver: Silver
H – Height: 5’ 5”
I – Instruments you play: I tinker on the piano & played clarinet in middle school.
J – Job title: Domestic engineer
K – Kid(s): None yet.
L – Living arrangements: Married & live with spouse when he's in port.
M – Mom’s name: Susan
N – Nicknames: Lizzie, Lizaroo, Lizard, Baby, Angel
O – Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Too many to count.
P – Pet Peeve: People who are always negative
Q – Quote from a movie: "Love won't obey your expectations, it's mysteries are pure & absolute." -Bridges of Madison County
R – Right or left handed: Right
S – Siblings: None
T – Time you wake up: 8:30am
U- Underwear: Yes, I wear it.
V – Vegetable you dislike: Asparagas
W – Ways/Reasons you run late: Take too long to get ready or dog is misbehaving.
X – X-rays you’ve had: Too many to count.
Y – Yummy food you make: Beef Stew
Z – Zoo favorite: Meerkats
Thursday, March 3, 2011
What do you do...
When a fellow infertility friend makes the decision to stop treatment?
Me? I cried for the sadness & heartache of that decision.
And out of fear that someday we'll be faced with the same decision.
H- I love you and I am thinking of you today. I hope you find peace & comfort soon.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
Day 28: Post a picture of something you're afraid of- Centipedes. They are huge here in Hawaii.
Day 29: A picture that can always make you smile-
Avery & I at Submarine Ball 2009. Love this picture of us.
Day 30: Post a picture of someone you miss-
Scamper, my childhood pup. He went over the rainbow bridge last May and there's not a day that goes by that I don't wish we'd had more time together.
Day 31: Post a picture of yourself-
Sunday, February 27, 2011
In infertility news...AF came to finally start my break cycle for March. All to gear my body up for IVF in April. I also bought a package deal on acupuncture so I can have that done before & after the IVF. I've read that acupuncture can help, so I figured I'd try it.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Avery is my rock. I cannot imagine my life without him in it. I love him more then I ever thought I could love someone. He gets me through it all. He is so strong. I am very thankful that God blessed me with marriage to him.
Friday, February 25, 2011
This wasn't taken today, but I did lay by the pool today and it was amazing!
In other news: I am feeling good today. I was reading more info on my infertility doctor- get this, he's got an over 50% success rate with IVF. Can you say d*mn! That's almost unheard of. I am even more thankful we have him as a doctor!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Today is another new day. I am still not 100% back to the positive side, but I feel ready to fight again. We will take March off as my doctor suggested and do IVF in April.
A baby will be born to us this year. This is our year. The year I finish my college degree and the year we become parents. All thanks to fierce determination & a lot of money....hehe!
Monday, February 21, 2011
Feel like burying my head under the covers and not coming out for a. long. a$$. time!
Infertility is cruel.
Saturday, February 19, 2011
I can tell you, this was not the plan we were expecting, but due to issues with the spouse....it doesn't look like anymore IUIs would be effective. [If by some miracle we did get pregnant from this month's IUI at least we'll know what to do in the future.]
Now on to the blog challenge, which I am sorely behind in:
Day 20: Post a picture of somewhere you'd love to travel-
Australia. The place looks amazing!
Skipping day 21, because no picture could do it justice. My feelings are that intense.
Day 22: Post a picture of something you wish you were better at:
Working out. I just don't like to do it.
Day 23: Post a picture of your favorite book-
The Giver by Lois Lowry. I absolutely love this book!
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Mine is never finding a career that I am truly happy in and therefore not succeeding in life. I want to work at a place where I feel happy to go there everyday or nearly everyday. I want to make money to pay off my student loans and live comfortably. I just have an insecurity that I won't make it.
Day 19: A picture and a letter:
The past 2 years have been very hard. You've struggled with the unfairness of life and the confusion of things not working out the way you'd hope. Yet your faith in God & positive outlook has kept you going. You are a strong woman. Nothing can bring you down if you let it. Keep confident! You will succeed and get what you want in life.
Be aggressive with the infertility, you control your care....be an advocate for you. Sometimes getting good health care means having to be selfish. That said, do not treat others unkindly. They didn't do this to you. Stay away from the negative and surround yourself with positive.
And keep praying....those daily minute meditations that come in the email: they are a good thing.
News: Less then a week left on the 2ww. It's been very difficult this cycle. The uncertainty just kills me! (They need a test that gives you results way sooner.) If things don't work out in the next 2 cycles, I will definitely be taking a break for May, June & July. I am going home to Illinois and going to rest up my mind & body. Hopefully though none of that will be necessary if the IUI worked last week. *Crossing fingers & praying a lot*
Our Valentine's Day was a short one....Avery didn't get home from the boat until after 8pm. We had dinner and the flowers he ordered for me didn't show up until after 9pm. Then we crashed a little after 10pm. Oh well...at least I got to see him!
Monday, February 14, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Visit The Vatican.
Day 16: A Picture of Someone Who Inspires you:
The writer of the blog, Newlyweds Next Door
I am not sure what it is, but reading her blog truly inspires me to keep working hard so I can achieve the things I want to achieve in life.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Day 14: A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without:
Obviously, it's my Mother. I've said it before, but she's amazing and my bestest friend. I really can't imagine my life without her.
Other stuff: Yeah, did the IUI on Wednesday. Sperm did not thaw well for some unknown reason. Very poor chance it worked. Back next week to discuss next steps. Tired of hearing about people getting pregnant. Tired of fighting freakin' Tricare Prime to get referrals taken care of, seriously the healthcare may be "free", but it is not even remotely easy to deal with. I mean, they have good customer service, but the system is seriously flawed.
I was super confident & feeling good yesterday. Today I've lost that confidence. I am tired of people telling me that maybe it's just not the right time. That's not supportive or helpful. Be kind, not ludicrous. My college adviser told me to take a 2 week break. She said I needed it, so I am taking it.
My friend Christie is moving in when Avery deploys. I just can't sit here alone for 6 months and I don't want to go home to IL for the whole deployment. I feel sort of like I am failing as a Navy wife having someone come to stay, but with all the stress we've been through, I just don't want to put myself in the position of being alone so much. I can see myself withdrawing from life if I don't have her here.
Well, it's late here and I should probably think about bed time. G'Night all.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Sunday, February 6, 2011
A picture of the person you do the craziest things with. This is my favorite Navy wife and bff, Stacie. We have the craziest adventures sometimes. From driving around random girlfriends to dealing with nutty people to doctor's appointments & police stations....we do it all. (Btw, police stations were not because we were in trouble.)
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Day 8- Post a picture that makes you laugh.
This is my bff & MOH, Angie, and I at the end of my wedding reception. There was a piano in the corner and we couldn't help but act a little silly.
Day 9: Post a picture of someone who has gotten you through the most.
Mine is a picture of God. I know it may seem cliche' but my faith in God has really kept me going in the tough times and I don't think I would be as strong as I am today, if it weren't for God.
Friday, February 4, 2011
I truly believe God has a plan and I hope this is it. I can also say that the power of prayer is really evident in our journey....we weren't sure the command was going to let Avery go to today's appointment and since he can't go next week, this was our last chance. In the end, we just prayed and it worked out. Seriously, so thankful to the lord above and all the people praying for us.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Day 6- Post a picture of someone you'd like to trade places with for a day.
Mine is the Prima Ballerina, Ashley Bouder, from New York City Ballet. She's one of my favorite principal dancers and I would love to know what being a professional ballet dancer feels like.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Day 5: A picture of your favorite memory.
This is Avery & I on the Big Island in December 2007. It was less then a month before we would become engaged and I was really happy to be with him (We'd been apart for a 6 month deployment, shortly before we went on this trip.) It was our first trip together as a couple and if I wasn't already head over heels for him, this trip sealed the deal. We happened to arrive at the black sand beach while there were sea turtles resting on the beach. I'd never seen anything like that before. Every time I see this picture, I remember how amazing it was to fall in love with him and how much more I love him now.