Day 14: A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without:
Obviously, it's my Mother. I've said it before, but she's amazing and my bestest friend. I really can't imagine my life without her.Other stuff: Yeah, did the IUI on Wednesday. Sperm did not thaw well for some unknown reason. Very poor chance it worked. Back next week to discuss next steps. Tired of hearing about people getting pregnant. Tired of fighting freakin' Tricare Prime to get referrals taken care of, seriously the healthcare may be "free", but it is not even remotely easy to deal with. I mean, they have good customer service, but the system is seriously flawed.
I was super confident & feeling good yesterday. Today I've lost that confidence. I am tired of people telling me that maybe it's just not the right time. That's not supportive or helpful. Be kind, not ludicrous. My college adviser told me to take a 2 week break. She said I needed it, so I am taking it.
My friend Christie is moving in when Avery deploys. I just can't sit here alone for 6 months and I don't want to go home to IL for the whole deployment. I feel sort of like I am failing as a Navy wife having someone come to stay, but with all the stress we've been through, I just don't want to put myself in the position of being alone so much. I can see myself withdrawing from life if I don't have her here.
Well, it's late here and I should probably think about bed time. G'Night all.
I have been thinking of you and Avery, I hope things turn around for you both!
ReplyDeleteIf you don't mind, I was just wondering what made you decide to not see the REI clinic at Tripler? Just curious :)
I have an iui tomorrow. Bit scared.
we should get together sometime again!
Hey Holly- We didn't go to the REI clinic at Tripler, because they denied our referral (meaning they wouldn't see us...so we had to go out in town).
ReplyDeleteAvery is leaving for deployment soon...so he's never home. Text or call me if you're bored or need distraction. The 2ww sucks!