I don't even know where to start this post. I've been so negative lately. And it boils down to the fact that I just desperately miss Hawaii and the people there. (Which Avery would roll his eyes at since I was the one who told him not to fight the detailer when his chief said he could and instead come here.) Avery told me a few days ago that I really needed to change my outlook. Of course at the time I took that personally and got angry with him. However, he was right. I've been so depressed about all sorts of things that I've been bitter. My outlook has been negative and harsh. I have always been a plan- way- too- far- aheader and that is hurting me. My son is 5 months old and I am already wondering how we're going to have the second child, which just depresses me more. So to the person I dumped all that on the other day, I am sorry. I just didn't know where else to turn.
I am hoping my trip home in August helps me renew my spirit. I always seem to feel renewed after I go home.
Today I am taking Matthew to the kidney doctor in Tacoma. Thankfully a gal I've known online since before I married Avery lives up there and I am finally going to meet her in person. I just need a best friend here. Maybe it's her? (R, if you're reading this, sorry for the pressure. ;-)
Thanks for listening....update on Matthew's appointment to follow this weekend or Monday.