My goals for 2013

In previous years I have made goals/resolves etc for the new year. I didn't really do any for 2011 (other then get pregnant, which we did achieve) and I most certainly did none for 2012. Let's face it 2012 was the year of big changes for us. I had a baby, moved away from some of my closest milspouse friends 5 weeks later, lived in a hotel for a month, finished college, got pregnant again and oh parented for the first time ever! The fact that I made it out on top without exploding is pretty awesome.  2013 is a new year with a lot less major changes (thank goodness!), so I feel like I can set some goals again.

This first goal is a big one for me. I have for a good chunk of my life dictated how/when/if I did or said things based on other people's emotions. Now this can be a good thing, but in the past year I noticed how bad it can also be. [For example, I held off announcing my current pregnancy for fear of the hurt I would cause other people with infertility. I also have had a hard time allowing myself to be happy about the pregnancy because of the guilt I feel. The stress this guilt caused was unbelievable. I cried over hurting people so often that I felt physically sick.] SO...my 1st goal is to not allow others emotions control my actions as much.

My second goal is related to the first and that is to raise my confidence level. Some might be surprised to know how hard it is for me to feel confident. I try very hard to project confidence, but in reality I struggle with this a lot.

My third goal is to return to work after I have our 2nd baby. I really, really do want to get back to my career and contribute to my field. I love working with people. It's my passion and I miss it. I love my kids with all my heart and I have enjoyed my time at home, but it's time for me to go back and put my education to use. I have nothing against SAHM as I've said before, but I need to have a job outside of the home.

And my fourth goal is to blog more often. Obviously I said that before. It's a great way to meet others, keep in touch and have some accountability.

Happy 2013 everyone!