Because I am not always strong and full of hope.
This path that we have been chosen to go down sucks. Yes, it's now in my hands....I need to call, have a meeting & get the referral. Yet I am scared, mad, sad & irritated over the whole thing. I keep hoping that this month we'll conceive naturally and won't need to do all this stuff. I don't want to be doing this stuff.
I am playing with precious time....time we don't have as the months tick down to when he leaves on deployment. Yet I continue to mess with it and not make the call. I feel like a lazy ass on this front.
Grrr......this is maddening!!!!!