5 Things Friday

Okay, because I've got nothing else better to do right now, you get to learn 5 things about me on a Friday.

1. My husband and I give each other Christmas lists every year, just to make the shopping for each other easier. Some people have told me they think this ruins the surprise, I, however, think it removes the possibility of me ever getting a frying pan or folding chairs or something of that sort.

2. The clothes in my closet are color coded & sorted by sleeve length and I am ridiculously proud of this fact.

3. Sometimes when I get really excited for people, I get tears in my eyes.

4. I am always reading something, yet I read the book for my book club usually only a few days before we are due to meet up again.

5. I really want to redo our office/guest room. It bugs me, yet I have continuously failed to get inspiration on what to do with it.

Looking for a new job

This week has just majorly sucked at work. I can't fake it anymore. I am tried and I just don't feel like putting on a happy face anymore. It seems like the people I thought I could confide in at our company only go straight to my boss. I don't like working at a place with people I can't trust. at. all. Seriously time to move on. Maybe take a break from working to focus on school for awhile. I don't know....I'll figure it out.

We have an appointment

Or rather I have an appointment, since knowing how the schedule looks I doubt hubby will be there with me. Meaning I finally stopped procrastinating & finally called to schedule our talk on what to do next. (In Avery's words...."it only took you a month!") Yeah, yeah....what can I say when I really don't want to do something I do a fantastic job of avoiding. That said, the appointment is made, I am ready to demand we get referred to a civilian fertility doctor or just decide to change to Tricare Standard so I can do what I want.

I am full of hope and am living vicariously thru my best friend, Angie. Thank god for having a friend who is more like a sister. I honestly sometimes cry when I read her emails, because she's so sweet to me.

Today is going to be a good day (even if only because I don't have to work! lol)

Life in Pictures

Grace (cutest gray/tortoiseshell kitty ever!) & Blackie (Black & white scaredy, but sweet cat.)
Hanging out in the kitchen cabinets. This is how they help make dinner.

Stanley, our handsome dude dog!
He celebrated turning 6 years old (& being ours for 6 months) with a trip to Petco, where he nearly killed himself jumping out a moving shopping cart.

Me, dressed for casual Friday at work.

Avery starting his day off with an energy drink. Stanley is concerned about where his Daddy is going. He doesn't like having to drop Dad off on the base, especially when there's also a sea bag in the car.Avery, my handsome sailor man!


"Wait for me, Dad, wait for me! I wanna go on the submarine too!"

Fighting off tears

Because I am not always strong and full of hope.
This path that we have been chosen to go down sucks. Yes, it's now in my hands....I need to call, have a meeting & get the referral. Yet I am scared, mad, sad & irritated over the whole thing. I keep hoping that this month we'll conceive naturally and won't need to do all this stuff. I don't want to be doing this stuff.
I am playing with precious time....time we don't have as the months tick down to when he leaves on deployment. Yet I continue to mess with it and not make the call. I feel like a lazy ass on this front.

Grrr......this is maddening!!!!!

Is it October already?

Wow, September just flew past me.

I have nothing new to report, except that I still am aggravated with work. I miss my stay at home wife days....a little, but I honestly think I keep the job because I like not being at home as much. It feels good to be a contributing member of society outside of just my house & family.

Avery finally got his reward for extending on the boat, so he is in Cali with his Mom. He seems lonely and I am lonely for him. Yet I know this is good for him to go and see people.

This weekend was a long weekend for me. The first weekend I have had off from work in a long time. It has felt so nice and I am dreading it coming to an end tonight.

Time for "fall" in Hawaii, which really just means a little more rain and a lot more heavy, hot air. My asthma reminds me how awful this crap is and how lovely a fall in Illinois would be...someday we'll be there again.